My plan when I set out to start blogging last month was that I was going to be as open and honest about my life as I could possibly be. I pledged to myself that I was not going to edit myself on any level. (Hence the title of the blog.) So, with things like JL's school starting back and his Fall sports, life gets pretty busy at our house this time of year. Do I love it?? Absolutely! But there's a part of me that struggles if things don't go as smoothly as I expect. Resulting in me blaming myself, which I know can’t be healthy! I for a fact am my toughest critic. The constant worrying that I'm letting my family or friends down has become overwhelming. I have fought with this for awhile now and it’s exhausting and frustrating at the same time. Life is not going to always go as planned but for some reason I struggle with accepting that. I honestly don’t know where this unrealistic responsibility comes from, but ITS GOT TO STOP!
So, with a new day, new school year, and new outlook, I’m going to make a promise to myself to not be so harsh on myself and to Just. Let. Shit. Go…
I can def relate and I am sure all moms can! I had a breakdown Monday because I was struggling with balancing it all and I felt I was doing everything wrong! Thanks for posting, makes me feel better!
ReplyDeleteOh I'm so glad I could help! I totally know all about that overwhelming breakdown feeling! :)
DeleteI have a hard time with trying to control things and when they don't go the way I planned, I beat myself up mentally. I just recently suffered a miscarriage, my second loss, and I keep running over a list of things that I could have done or should have done-- I can't keep doing thing. So my mantra is that everything does happen for a reason!
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed this post and I hope that things start looking up and that your fresh start makes things all just fall into place!
That's exactly what I do! Oh, that's tough...my sister has been where you are and I can only imagine the feeling. Your doing the right thing by telling yourself that everything happens for a reason! :) Enjoyed your comment!
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